sighs i wish i could just, say what i was thinking instead of sitting there thinking: thats dumb! what you have to say is dumb! your needs do not matter. b/c i KNOW my needs matter and i deserve to be heard but sdhgddfjlk its hard when u feel bad about, who you are. mgnfhfh tired of cryin about this.
i already feel like hitting myself urhgh i can feel , like, how i feel before. i get that way. mghdsjkldfs id rather just die than deal w/ any of this anymore (not literally) (im just done im so done)
its just really hard to feel like anyone cares;;; even though i know rationally lots of people care about me;;; ghldkfj my stories are dumb and im just. kinda useless. :( its surprising ppl even talk to me.
honestly tho im not surprised i hit myself. im weak. im so weak haha god. im weak and worthless. i cant turn to anyone anymore!! good tho. good. its really good.
i am a fucking mess. i am a complete fucking mess. i betrayed everyone today and i cant believe myself, i didnt n eed to be alone today, i need people around me and im so alone and scared, i k eep , weeping and i mm sad and scared im so so scared
going thru my vent blog was a bad idea lmao how many times can u post “i want to die” in different ways
i won’t act on it of course i would never do anything it’s just. in the back of my mind. like hey maybe I wouldn’t continue to hurt other ppl with my needs if i were just gone.
"are you mad at me" yes im fucking mad at you jesus fucking christ just. let us get a new dog i dont fucking car e about money i dont care id ont care i dont care about anything i just wan t. a nother fuckign dog