i went back to a bad habit today and i hit myself in the head. and i cant stop crying. ive cried on and off literally all day. everything just fucking hurts. the fact that we have to worry about having a house is going to hurt my family for years. years to come. and im not gonna graduate within a year, it’ll be at least two fucking years. and i dont get to be with my girlfriend unti lwe both graduate and get jobs!!!!!!!!!!!!! so basically my whole fucking life is on hold for a few fucking miserable years and i dont know if i can make it. im not that fucking strong. im not!!!!!!!!!! im not.
its nnot so much to ask for a fucking hug every once in a while jesus FUckign christ, my needs are so fucking simple and yet they ar e never met b/c i cant get anything i want, and m y whole life is going down the tubes, and every section of my life is ass fucking backwards
sighs i wish i could just, say what i was thinking instead of sitting there thinking: thats dumb! what you have to say is dumb! your needs do not matter. b/c i KNOW my needs matter and i deserve to be heard but sdhgddfjlk its hard when u feel bad about, who you are. mgnfhfh tired of cryin about this.